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After The Movies

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1.
Disrepair 01:03
How much longer shall we keep fighting? How much longer should we defend our sins? Will the pain we gain be worth it in the end, or will it kill us because we won't give up? We have fallen into disrepair (we wont give up) and we act like we dont care (we wont let go) because darling, we're dancing in constant dejavu. I'm sorry, but it's hard to be who you want me to be...
2.
Samsara 03:02
~Pull me close~ Pull me closer, so our hearts can touch; let us become one, let us become one... Let go of all the sorrows inside; I'll take them away, I'll take them away... Through the darkest hours, the devil is controlling my mind. Captive by my own selfishness and greed; I'm so afraid of losing you. This feeling I can't let go; pulling me deep into solitude. Tell me that this is unreal... I can't blame anyone else for this; I brought this pain upon myself. All the promises have been broken; tearing me apart, tearing me apart. Thoughts are blinded by misconception; a glass shatters deep in my heart. "Promise you won't let go of everything we had..." These memories will stay with me. While you say "goodbye", and you dissapear from my side; I won't forgive myself, I won't forget you... Even if I close my eyes at the bottom of the sea, I can't drown this demon inside. I will sink with the ship, alone; I will suffer on my own. I never wanted to stop heaven; I did not want this at all. I hate myself more than you ever will, more than you ever will. I could never let you go... "Promise you won't let go of everything we had..." These memories will stay with me. While you say "goodbye", and you dissapear from my side; I won't forgive myself, I won't forget you...
3.
What have I done? I never meant to hurt you. What have I done? Take it back, take it back... What have I done? I never meant to hurt you. What have I done? Take my breath, take my life instead. Ada lagi yang tersisa dari saya... The fear of being too close to you has gotten the best of me. A mistake that I can never take back has left you breatheless. Wake up, wake up, wake up, please wake up from your sleep. Open your eyes for me. The vision of you is beginning to fade away. Everything is turning into black; come back, come back... The blood on my hands, forever stains like a memory... And I will always love you (I'll never forget); You're more than a memory. Holding on to regret, the night I can't forget- your voice still screams to me inside my head; I can't let go... If I could turn the clock to yesterday and let my mistakes fade away, I would. I would do anything to have you back in my arms... You were everything to me- You're more than a memory... You were everything to me, to me... What have I done? I never meant to hurt you. What have I done? Take it back, take it back... What have I done? I never meant to hurt you. What have I done? Take my breath, take my breath... Everything is turning into black.
4.
Lost in thoughts, emptiness holds me close. It seems that hope is so far gone, for my heart is weak, it becomes hard to move on. The rain keeps pouring, while my soul keeps drowning; I'll continue to scream and sing, as I pray for solace. Affliction- I remember the pain deep in her eyes. Her last words before she said her final 'goodbye'... "Don't you forget about me, my love... I will wait for you, I will wait for you." Could I take back the mistakes I've done? Oh god, bring back what's mine... The rain within my mind's like water in my lungs; I cannot heal this wounded heart. With these empty hands, with this broken voice; Could I ever reach you? The melody has been sung through sleepless nights over and over again. In loneliness, you're here with me in my mind; the vision I can't let go... How much longer must I live this way? With fake happiness, but truth hidden inside. I can no longer live this life, I can no longer live with lies... Come take my hand, take me away... Affection- I'll never forget the love you've shown me. Save me now, before this grave becomes my bed... Will I ever see the end of this? I will never rest, I will never rest. Like in "dreams" that we used to share, I'll close my eyes with you...
5.
The burden inside me, I can no longer carry- I can feel as my fate comes to an end. The fires begin to rise before my eyes; a sight of disaray can't be erased. These painful memories, I'll burn them all with me. He whispers in my ear, "I will be your eyes tonight..." "I will become your salvation- I'll wash away all of your sins." "There's no lie to save you now- This will be your damnation." -The vision of red and black- The demon inside me is becoming my own fear. Can I find an escape away from hell? In this misery, there's no air to breathe; Soon, I will decay and turn to ash. He whispers in my ear, "I will be your eyes tonight..." "I will become your salvation- I'll wash away all of your sins." "There's no lie to save you now- This will be your damnation." -End it all- -A reflection in the mirror- "You're dead, you're dead, you're dead to me" -I am Death, I am the fire, here I stand over you- Turn my sins into ashes... The voice inside my head will lead me here to death. Wrapped in the Devil's tongue; suffocation within his words. Wrapped in the Devil's tongue; no escape, no escape... I will never forget what I've done, nor will I forgive myself. Gasoline and lighter in my hands will make a flame to end it all.
6.
If I told you that I'm sorry, would it bring you back into my arms? If I told you that I miss you, could you let go of what I put you through? And I guess that I've missed every chance to fix what I've broken. Will you ever feel the same again? I'm still scared that your mind has changed. (if I told you that I'm sorry...)
7.
Why is it so hard to let things go, especially, the ones we loved? Why must we feel the way we do, holding onto what brings us down? Bring me the sun, I'm getting weary of this clouded sky. Open my eyes and let me see, let me see the light. If you could hear me... Take me away, set me free, please put an end to this misery. I've tried my best to not give in; to find solace in this sinking ship. Serenity seems so far away when depression's holding you down. While I'm falling deeper day by day, this battle will put me in the ground. Time to time, I wish I could control and erase what's on my mind, but fear has overcome this soul while hope has left me behind. Standing on the edge of self-affliction; in my eyes, I see death as the only salvation. What brings hope when you're already dead inside, and you feel like giving it all up? Where is hope when heaven stops, for I've lost myself deep within the hell inside my head? Is this love? If this is love, then I don't want to feel; numb my heart that I cannot heal. Just close my eyes and lay me to rest; let me escape, let me escape... Standing on the edge of self-affliction; in my eyes, I see death as the only salvation. Take me away, set me free, please put an end to this misery. I've tried my best to not give in; to find solace in this sinking ship. Take me away, set me free...
8.
Intangible 03:24
Years have passed, we have changed; I can't let go of the past, can't let go of your name. Time won't heal what's broken; I have realized the pain, we'll never feel the same... This feeling is inescapable, just like an endless rain. We're so close, yet so far away; a beauty, I'm longing to touch. You're the dream that I wish to have; a desire stronger than lust. Separated by the sky, could you hear my voice tonight, As I cry out your name? You're the ghost in all my dreams; forever remains in my mind... Intangible... The sun begins to set before my eyes; Unveiled the ugly truth, a beautiful lie. A dream that might not last for eternity, yet, filled my heart with serenity. Why did I have to wake up? Why did it have to stop? Separated by the sky, could you hear my voice tonight, As I cry out your name? You're the ghost in all my dreams; forever remains in my mind... Intangible... ~"We're all lonely for something we don't know what we're lonely for. How else to explain this feeling that goes around like we're missing someone we've never even met?"~ We both pretend like we're each other's ghosts, but buried deep in my head, you're the one I care for the most. The two of us, live together as one by the motionless sea; a vision that was never meant to be. Years have passed, we have changed; I can't let go of the past, can't let go of your name. Time won't heal what's broken; I have realized the pain, we'll never feel the same... We'll never feel the same...
9.
I have lost my goddamn mind; tired of hurting everyone. I would beg for you to stay, but it's so selfish of me to say. I'm afraid of what I've become; blinded by my intentions. And my skin is burning up, while I drag myself to the dying sun. And I still need you, after what I've put you through. I don't want you gone out of my life. As much as I want to leave, my heart still wants to believe, but my mind says otherwise, "it's not right, baby, it's not right"! Burning out like the dying sun, I've been drowning since you're gone. Regret haunts me in my sleep. I'm not worth it, I'm a worthless piece of shit. "Love" is just not worth the pain, the pain I have given you. Could we start this all again, even when our feelings have changed? Life is just not worth it, so take my breath & put me to sleep. Should we start over again, or should we just reach the end? Is this the end? "Is this our goodbye?" I guess this is our goodbye, better luck for us next time. Though it doesn't feel right, To say "goodbye for now..."
10.
Even if years have passed by, I see you every night in the back of my mind. I thought this feeling was gone, my heart had moved on; I've realized I was wrong. I never wanted to lose you, I never wanted to change you. Even if you still can't let me in, I will understand. We were so young and didn't know any better, I was naive and thought we'd be forever. It was my mistake and I have lost the game; I'll take the blame, I'll take the blame... ~We both have changed and things are not the same like they used to be yesterday... I can't explain, I just want to leave the past and not relive what we used to have...~ I can't let go of you, I can't let go of our memories; I know it's selfish of me. I tried to walk away, I tried to escape- to fight off the words you say before you kill me. But I'm in love- so deep, I don't want you to leave. I see you in my sleep. I just want to believe. Save me from myself...
11.
If I let you in, will I sink or swim? Knowing that it would be wrong, with sorrows still I pull you close. If you let me in, would it be a sin to tell you I'm in "love" with you? To love at all is to be vulnerable, so lock your heart away and swallow the key. This desire has made me miserable; falling for someone like you, whom I thought I could see through. These walls between us seem to be unbreakable; if I tear down my end, Darling, will you do the same? If I let you in, will I sink or swim? Knowing that it would be wrong, with sorrows, still I pull you close. If you let me in, would it be a sin to tell you I'm in "love" with you? This loneliness has become an affliction... tyfgieygywig38947fgq37ygfhwkeruqfo4780g jrhcb 734G&IWF#$gfjkncelwkujhnIL Open yourself and let me swim inside, while our spirits intertwined in this endless lust. Wipe your tears away, we can be one tonight. Let me be the sun in your eyes. "Give me some time, I'll change myself for you; will you wait here for me? You can't say I never tried; it's hard to let you in. I could never let you in..." I will give you all the time you need. No, don't you ever change a thing. I've been waiting way too long. I know you've tried to let me in, but it feels like I'm sinking... Our promises and our memories don't matter now; did they ever matter to you? I hope you know nothing lasts forever. Nothing lasts forever, but if you allow it, I'd drown a part of me inside of you. So don't you forget me, don't you forget... Close your eyes, the dawn is here... Close your eyes with me.

about

This album was a long process full of some excellent memories and a very turbulent ending. The five of us (Chase, Andy, Yofi, Evan and Kasey) spent months and months crafting this album and we were very particular about the outcome.

Very shortly before the release, Yofi conciously decided to step down from his position as vocalist as the stress and his own demons stood too heavily in his way. He lived his lyrics day by day, and this is never more evident than in the album's climax with "Dying Sun", "Tacenda" and "Such Blinding Stars"

He's been the voice of some excellent lyrics and very unique vocals for this project, and we're very proud to have ever worked with him. We wish him the absolute best fortune in all of his future endeavors.

We had planned a more substantial release with physical copies, but with Yofi's departure we will be moving forward from this album with new material and a new sound.

We all hope that you enjoy this release. All lyrics can be found attached to the tracks.

Stay connected, this is not our ending.

Final show before a short hiatus on May 27th, at The Somewhere Else Tavern in Greensboro, NC.

credits

released May 3, 2016

Yofi Rosemari - Vocals
Chase Kinney - Guitar
Evan Shaw - Guitar
Kasey C. Jarrell - Bass & Vocals
Andy Jolliffe - Drums

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Music by After The Movies,
Lyrics by Yofi Rosemari

2016, All Rights Reserved.

Mixed and Mastered by Jamie King, The Basement Recording Winston Salem NC

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After The Movies Greensboro, North Carolina

Vox: Yofi Rosemari

Guitar: Chase Kinney

Guitar: Evan Shaw

Bass: Kasey C. Jarrell

Drums: Andy Jolliffe

After the Movies is a raw, emotionally-charged post-hardcore band, local to Greensboro NC. Est 12.12.12. @afterthemovies1
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